Regret

I miss you Papa!

Midnight Sun

Your lips were like a red and ruby chalice,
Warmer than the summer night.
The clouds were like an alabaster palace
Rising to a snowy height.
Each star its own aurora borealis,
Suddenly you held me tight --
I could see the Midnight Sun.

Baby, I love you. I do!!

If you want my lovin
If you really do
Don't be afra-aid bab-ay
Just ask me
Ya know I'm gonna give it to you

Oh and I do declare (I do)
I Wanna see you with it
Stretch out your arms little boy
Your gonna get it
Cause I love you-oo
(Baby, baby, baby I love you)
There ain't no doubt about it
Baby I lo-ove you
(Baby, baby, baby I love you)
I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, baby I love you

If you feel you wanna kiss me
Go right ahead I don't mind
All you got to do is snap your fingers
And I'll come a- runnin, I ain't lyin
(I ain't lyin)
And Ooooh what you want'
Little boy you know you got it
I'd deny my own self
Before I see you without it
Cause I love you
(Baby, baby, baby I love you)
Ain't no doubt about it baby I love you
(Baby, baby, baby I love you)
I love you, I love you, I love you,
I love you, Baby I love you

Someday ya might wanna run away
And leave me sittin here to cry
But if it's all the same to ya baby
I'm gonna stop ya from sayin goodbye
(Goodbye)
Baby I love ya (baby, baby, I love ya)
Baby I need ya (baby, baby I need ya)
Said I want ya (baby baby I want ya)
Got ta have ya (baby baby I love ya)
Don't let your neighbors tell ya I don't want ya
(Baby, baby I want ya)
FADES-
Don't let your lowdown friends
(Baby, baby I want ya)
Say I don't need ya
(Baby, baby I need ya)
Uh-huh baby I love ya...

Black Coffee

I'm feeling mighty lonesome
Haven't slept a wink
I walk the floor and watch the door
And in between I drink
Black coffee
Love's a hand me down brew
I'll never know a Sunday
In this weekday room

I'm talking to the shadows
from 1 o'clock til 4
And lord, how slow the moments go
When all I do is pour
Black coffee
Since the blues caught my eye
I'm hanging out on Monday
My Sunday dreams to dry

Now a man is born to go a lovin'
A woman's born to weep and fret
To stay at home and tend her oven
And drown her past regrets
In coffee and cigarettes

I'm moaning all the morning
and mourning all the night
And in between it's nicotine
And not much heart to fight
Black coffee
Feelin' low as the ground
It's driving me crazy just waiting for my baby
To maybe come around... around
I'm waiting for my baby
To maybe come around

My nerves have gone to pieces
My hair is turning gray
All I do is drink black coffee
Since my man's gone away

Now you say you're lonely
Said you cried the whole night through
Well you can cry me a river
Cry me a river
'Cause I cried a river over you

Oohhh
Now you say you're sorry
For being so untrue
So what?
Just cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you

You drove me
(Bye-bye, my love)
You nearly drove me out of my head
(Bye-bye, my love)
While you never shed a tear
Remember?
I remember all you said

Told me love was too plebeian
Told me you were through with me
And now you say you love me
Well, just to prove you do
Go on and cry me a river
I'd like to see you cry me a river
'Cause I'm tired of crying over
You

You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
Ooo.. see that girl, watch that scene, diggin' the Dancing Queen

Friday night and the lights are low
Looking out for the place to go
Where they play the right music, getting in the swing
You come to look for a king
Anybody could be that guy
Night is young and the music's high
With a bit of rock music, everything is fine
You're in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance

You are the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing Queen, feel the beat, from the tambourine oh yeah
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
Ooo.. see that girl, watch that scene, diggin' the Dancing Queen

You're a teaser, you turn 'em on
Leave 'em burning and then you're gone
Looking out for another, anyone will do
You're in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance

You are the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing Queen, feel the beat from the tambourine oh yaaa
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
Ooo.. see that girl, watch that scene, diggin' the Dancing Queen

Diggin the Dancing Queen

When I was a kid, whenever I walked, I always looked down, I picked lots of pennies/coins enuff to buy myself a small gold rings ( 3 of the 18 k golden ring ). then after My dad bought me my first underwater camera I , spent almost all my allowance to develop film after film. and just like a professional photography I snapped here and there. mostly the clouds, moon, sky. I just like them so much, they are the most relaxing object for me. I love spending hours and hours just watching at the sky. Well now I'm a grown person. I still do the same thing, I don't like to drive, I hate it, because I can't concentrate on the street. Every 5- so minutes I lost it and start looking around. got into accident couple times. I can just stop and snap pictures all the time. I love our world.!!!

Thinking

Should I?
Shouldn't ?
Should I?
Or should not??
Aaargh!!!

Should I? or shouldn't I?
what the hay
no body know this anyway!!!

the reason to smoke?

I did smoke once a long time ago. I thought maybe If I smoke in front of my dad, it will teach him a lesson to stop smoking himself. and Boy I was wrong a big time. Instead of teaching my dad, I got the lesson in a bad way. I was tagged by a personal driver from dawn till home for 2 weeks, no allowance for 1 month, no outdoor activities with friends. and I was a high schooler at that time So that was BAD. Anyway, I understood that smoking is never good for one and I did it because I want my dad to stop smoking. and eventually he did. Thank you Lord. ( oh yeah I did puffed and huffed thingy for about less than 2 weeks and did intentionally pretend that I was hiding from my dad and doing it in his office backyard duh!!! )

Well that's my reason.

And I read and heard somewhere that a young girl as young as 14-15 start it because the boyfriend did. (stupid but too young to be smart and regret will come later and she have plenty of time Just hope that she's not pregnant and still smoking) then the other one, a mature woman said he smoke only when she feel bored/stress. mmmmmmmmmmm I wonder if some one else will say " I only kill people when I feel bored/stress" That's the worst excuses given as a reason to smoke!!
well at least try to be like me. Smoke with a good reason. Or just be honest. just say I like it, it wake me up or make me skinny, or make me look c/fool!!

Anyway I still go with my Shallow rules. Can't help to not droll to see a bad cold dude with a "wow" face puffing a cigar. Oh my guyness, the cool view are such an eye candy but the smell, specially a cigar oh I wish I can invent a chocolate smell cigar or aqua di gio cigar. Anyway

Darn it. Once you let in the excuses, here and there then you let your self down.
I start cursing when I got upset. and now My mouth are trained. even though I wasn't upset My sailor beak blurt out a pretty bad stuff. but then I managed to control myself. and change it to a fruit loops, a ding dong or Miami beach. and all those pg 13. except when I deal with a real baboon. ;) So Stop while you can

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

My New Year

Waking up I said to myself. I will start this new year like the best ever. I'll start excercising and back on my diet track. and clean up the messy room and before I even finished the clean messy room part, I just realized, CRAP!!!! I was drinking too much last night. and I remembered still bussy eating my brownies ala mode after the new york steak. and that's my new year baby!!!!

I was partying late and there goes my new year resolutions. Crossed out the excercise thing because I have a bad hang over. the diet? darn it. I was still chewing my fries at 2:30 am and celaned up? what they hay, I want to sleepppppppppppppppzzzzzzzz... but. yes there's always a but in everyone, I'll start my Goody New Year side tomorrow. I mean it. second January 2009. I'll be good!!!

Happy New Year 2009 everyone!!!!