A day after Christmas.

Christmas's over. Another year will soon be over.

My body is still hurting, Oh my old rusty joint.

It was just yesterday , I climbed up and down the leader

to put on the Christmas decoration.

The cuts I got from embracing the Tree trunk

when I hung the Christmas light is still not healed yet.

and now I have to set a date to take them all down.

I love Christmas, presents decorating and all that, but it's such a lousy feeling when I have to wrapped up after it. Why can't I just let the decoration stay till next Christmas? it's only 11 months to go.

what's the reason for people to blog?

WHY AM I BLOGGING?
Because I want to share my bicthiness with one or two people out here.

DO I LIKE TO BLOG?
No, I hate blogging, I'm not an open person ( I guess Now I kind of open up), I hate random thing. I need no stranger to know about me and my stuff. but I just need to let some steam out of my system trough here.

WHY NOW?
make it short : I hate someone. Every time I read the blog of someone that I know very well. All I can think is " Crazy arsh, this person have no shame, how can s/he said such a lie. how can s/he just blab things that not even real/ lost the mind? asking for attentions? sympathy ? what a bull. doesn't s/he ever think that maybe one or two of the family /close friend who know that this person is lying will bump to the blog and read all the shit s/he put out in the blog? lame. I hate that s/he still not learn from the mistake. Stop spreading lies, save yourself. why can't you learn from your past? slap your self dude and wake up.

I had old account before Which I lost it long ago, and this one is almost a goner too. But then I said to myself : Maybe s/he will bump to this one too and will read this and then realize something then stop the bad habit. because really dude. it's embarrassing. Many years , you used letters, email and now blogging to create and spread lies. always you are the victim, always you are the one need to be safe, always us the bad guy. Seriously stop. we're family. no need to disgrace one or the other.

The Past

I'm confused

Struggling to let go

Can't forget, want to forget for so long

Yet afraid that it will be gone

What If one day I want it back

Will I need them?

Forced myself to erase

While I'm afraid to delete

Will it work this time?

What happen when I lost it?

Will I regret?........................................

Will I?

Blessing.....

Counting my blessing every single day.

Loving my family and friends every moment

also

Hating some of them here and there.

Blessed the people who take care of the trashed

Blessed the people who clean up the toilet

Blessed the people who go vegetarian

Blessed the people who do recycle

Blessed the people who killed animals so the other people can eat them

Blessed the people who gave a moment of their time to save the others

Blessed the people who fight for the War

Blessed the people who say NO to drugs

Blessed the people who eat neatly at a restaurant

Blessed the people who Curse at someone so that he/she stop smoking

Blessed the people who take care of the Earth.

Blessed every living thing in the world.